Who Am I? - My Journey - My Purpose and Values
Who am I?
This isn't an existential question regarding my true essence. This is a question about who I am as the personality, where I'm from, what kind of qualifications I hold, etc. So let me start by saying that I have worked in the healing arts for over 15 years and have been a medical professional (pharmacist) for over 20 years. I have trained in many healing and self-development modalities over the years, including Theta Healing and NLP, and have sat with highly conscious individuals. But these are my qualifications and experiences and don't really give you an insight into who I am. Like everyone, I have been on a journey, one which has taken me to some rather dark places in life, and I have faced many challenges. Through these experiences, my innate gifts and abilities as a healer, an alchemist have risen to the surface, and now I am here sharing these gifts and abilities with you. Let me give you some idea of how I got here.
I was born in 1971 in central Scotland, the youngest of 4 children. Being very sensitive as a child brought many challenges, which would direct the unfolding of my early adult life. This all culminated in serious ill-health in my early 30's, so serious that I almost died.
I was living in London when I first started my spiritual journey. Being sensitive and living in London was very tough for me, and it was this overstimulation of my system that lead me to seek 'spiritual sustenance'. Like many people, I discovered Reiki then trained in Seichem. Then after a couple of years I began to work with a wonderful spiritual master, Aiping Wang. My four years with her, which began in 2001, were such wonderful years, pushing me to leave behind an old way of living. Through resistance to this huge shift in consciousness I manifested serious illness in my life, and eventually had to return home to Scotland in 2005.
Within a few months of returning home, I found myself standing in front of John of God, the "miracle" healer of Brazil. I visited him eight times over 5 years, each visit peeling back the layers of energetic density and limitation. Over these 5 wonderful years, I trained to be a Life Coach, NLP Master Practitioner, Ericksonian Hypnotherapist, Theta Healer and Teacher. This was a fun time of development, meeting old soul friends in the guise of new physical friends, and was a huge integral part of my own healing and spiritual unfoldment.
On my seventh visit to John of God, I met Damien Wynne, a wonderful Irish healer and teacher. We quickly became friends. Damien's 'technique', Light Grids (www.damien-wynne.de) was a game changer for me. I began to make amazing spiritual and emotional shifts, and will be eternally grateful to Damien and all the energy beings who work with Light Grids.
In 2013 I began to drift slightly from Light Grids, as I began to find my feet, and my own voice. Stepping back from this wonderful modality was a tough decision but a necessary one. I remember waking up one Sunday morning in the summer of 2013, desperately 'trying' to get my new website online. I was in a panic. Then I received guidance to just STOP. DO NOTHING. But I couldn't do that. I needed to get things finished. I had to appear in control. So, within 30 minutes I was watching meditation videos on YouTube, and by design I found videos of Gangaji, an American spiritual teacher, whose teaching was basically STOP. DO NOTHING. I was stunned that I was guided to this message, the same message that Aiping Wang taught me 13 years previously. So I listened to Gangaji for 5 hours that day, consuming all the teaching. Those few hours changed my life. The world became soft, easy, and an indefinable peace descended upon me. For a full week, I was floating through life, happy, sad, fearful, angry, frustrated. But all of these human emotions vying for my attention were all appearing in a background of what I call a 'soft velvety richness'. There was a palpable stillness enveloping everything and everyone. My life had changed. But I wasn't quite sure how it would all fit into place. Now when I received the message to STOP and DO NOTHING, it confused me at first. I thought that it would promote laziness and passivity. But what I feel it means is DO less and BE more. Allow life to unfold for you. The next part of my journey gave me the tools to allow this to happen.
In 2014 I attended a Quantum Entrainment workshop in Amsterdam. I had read all of the books on this technique, and had planned on taking the course many times, but it never really lined up for me. This was my first opportunity to experience it face to face with its founder, Frank Kinslow. I was in bliss. This teaching more or less recommends that we just allow life to change for us, by accessing the Stillness of the Self. The teaching of do nothing, receive everything, an echo of Aiping's teaching, and the message from Gangaji was now more firmly planted in my mind, as I could now apply it in life and see results. This is how I now work. In fact, working in this way has permitted me to facilitate very rapid healing, especially the removal of pain from the body, and the soothing of intense emotions. It's such a beautiful experience for me to witness.
In September 2014 I revisited Light Grids whilst on retreat in Turkey. It was like coming home again to my spiritual family and assisted me immensely in my journey of healing and awakening. It truly reminded me to bathe in stillness and allow healing to occur as I witness its unfolding.
So I work with Stillness, or rather Stillness works through me.
What does that mean? It means that I hold a loving, divine space for your natural development and healing. This is a simple, yet profoundly powerful process. In a world of complexity, I believe we all need to revisit our innate sense of simplicity, to allow life to flow naturally, genuinely without trying to hammer everything into the shape we think it must be. Many people talk about living in the NOW, a spiritual truth made popular by Eckhart Tolle. My way of working, in 1-2-1 and group settings, promotes this basic truth of life. Through my life experiences I have come to realise that it's our minds, our incessant inner dialogue that brings unnecessary suffering. So even if you never read beyond these words, I urge you to find a way to quieten your mind, and allow a deeper sense of YOU to reveal itself.
So this has been my journey so far. Of course I have left out many details, but this is how I have come to appear here as a healer, an alchemist, coach and mentor.
My Purpose and Values
Through my life experience, I have gained perspective on what it feels like to live a disempowered life, tortured by fear and unworthiness, hiding in the shadows, unwilling to step into the light, into the goodness of life, into my birthright. That birthright is happiness, joy, confidence, an expansion into who we really are beyond the confines of social conditioning and genetic limitation. I believe we are all here to create 'heaven on earth', a beautiful paradise where we all experience Love, Abundance, Joy and Peace. Am I being naive, an innocent seeing life through rose coloured spectacles? I don't believe so.
From the powerful stance of the innocent being within me, I believe that this is all possible, and more.
And it is no mistake that I have been lead to express myself through 'techniques' that promote stillness of being, a more effortless way of living and attaining the joy and peace that are our innate qualities, and our birthright.
It is this FREEDOM that I long for, that makes me tick, and in pursuing this way of life for myself, I hope that you will join me in this peaceful journey of realising more of who you really are. We all have different destinations in mind and varied paths to take, but wouldn't you rather walk your path with a deep sense of Presence, witnessing each step unfold before your very eyes? Or are you so desperate to reach your destination that you miss the beauty in every step?
So with this in mind, I offer you healing and life mentoring, in 1-2-1 settings by phone or in person, and group workshops (see events page)
If you are interested in working with me on a 1-2-1 basis, whether healing or mentoring, please do get in touch. As well as working with private clients in 1-2-1 and group settings, I also record healing meditations, and provide a healing and coaching service to charities in Central Scotland.